I made it through those bad times and survived into 2013. I'm a musician as well like I said in an earlier post and I don't claim to know any more about Kurt or what he was trying to say than anyone else, I did not know him personally, and even if I did, it wouldn't matter because I don't live in his head. but I guess I only understand him because I am a musician. do you really think he'd want to risk getting killed by saying what the song was about, hmmm?I could inform people on the musical aspect on the song if I knew it, but I admit I've never learned to play this song so I'll keep my mouth shut about that area. The only hint is watching poor kids with cancer die believing in Jesus, his words. logic guys..."broken hymen of your highness im left black/throw down your umblical noose so i can climb right back" his mother is his highness and obviously the hymen must be broken in order to give birth to kurt which left him black as in dead and empty because of his addiction and wishes he could climb back into her womb and start over"Meat eating orchids forgive noone just yet" is a reference to heroin.& the line "i wish i could eat your cancer when you turn black" is his way of saying 'i love you' to Courtney.The title 'Heart-Shaped Box' is, i believe, the heart shaped box Courtney Love sent to Kurt - Which is shown in the video.
Kurt was pining away for another girl, who he said he use to be angry at and about not having a steady commitment which took place a few years earlier from his marriage and his baby.
I suffer from bi-polar disorder (as did Kurt) and have been instututionalized multiple times, but I am not crazy or even violent, in fact I am one of the most easygoing people you will ever meet.
My best friend is schizoprenic and is one of the smartest people I have ever met.
I'm thinking though that the line 'I've been drawn into you're magnet tar pit trap' might mean that he had to use heroin to ease his stomach and back pains and then he became addicted and the line 'I've been locked inside your heart shaped box for weeks' could mean that since Courtney gave him that box they started going out and got married and Kurt was stuck with her.
And that idea about the picses and cancer, Pisces supposedly have weak personalities and are easily controlled or dominated.